Being alone is only bad when you're with somone else

I'm missing a part of my chest. It remains spattered across the thresh-hold of an east lincoln home. I wish I could feel a longing for what I've lost, but all I can do is remind myself of what I've done. There will come a day when I am at peace with being alone. I only long for that time to be this day. How much more could be accomplished without thinking constantly on love. How I hate the word. How it brings with it nothing but misery entangled with pain. How I long for it. How I wish I could be so swept away in love that the world and its cares would no longer matter to this tattered soul. Life you are cruel to this old fool. My hat comes off to your skill. She appears each time I close my eyes, she remains when they are open. This emotion, sitting in my chest like the hot lead my skull so earnestly desires, respects not the rules.

It is your fault. You should not have let yourself become open. You should not have dreamed. You have a task at hand. There is no time for this love. There is no time for this idle doddling. You have too much ahead. Too much ahead. Stay strong. You will survive the rigors of this life and have thick skin enough to laugh at these distant-foreign memories. You will succeed. You will take the world. You need only to withstand the clutches of this life. If just wasn't 'meant' to be just like the hundred before her. You thought she was special, but they all hurt just as the one before. There is no difference amongst them. Stay far from their clasp and you shall succeed.

Matt, this is yourself asking you to wise up, and hang tough. We can get through this if you will allow it. Take control. Take control. Love is not for you. Get it outta your skull. Love is for those who want to be forgotten. Your legend will never die. Your legend will never die. YOU WILL NEVER DIE. Crush the world. Crush them all. Make them long for what they cannot have. You will be the best, you are the best, and you will always be the best. We need them not. Destruction is your only ally. Pain your komrade, desire your confidant.

They can't stop us now.